How has college been? I have a lot of free time. I mean a LOT. Peter and I don't have a TV in our room, which is good because we don't really want one at all, so most of the leisure time I've got is spent on biking. I'm not familiar or comfortable enough to go too far into town, so most of my biking is done around the campus. Besides that, I sometimes go and talk to any of the many people I'm acquainted with, mostly girls, which I find funny. It's really really awesome to be allowed to be so spontaneous, and I love it. To be schedule-less and without commitments to anyone is great. I hardly have a schedule to follow most days, but I miss some routines, like having dinner or breakfast or lunch with the same person or people everyday. That comfort and anchor doesn't exist for me right now, which I dislike. I don't like it at all, actually, and I think I hate it. I haven't quite fallen into a perfect niche yet, but I'm sure I'll get into one, preferably one that still allows me this lovely spontaneity.
The weather is just like home, which I like, except for more rain, which I love. The overcast days occur often with their soft light and wind. Sunny days come just as often (for now) and they're truly brilliant, the sun veiling the older and more featured buildings with distinguished shadows. Even though it'd put an end to my bike adventures, I can't wait until it starts to snow.
I acquired wine the other day, but it's cheap commercial wine. yellowtail. I asked for some kind of California riesling, but they got me two bottles of yellowtail riesling. Not at all cool, but I haven't tasted it yet, which is the only way to be sure, but still. I know I'm a college kid. I'm supposed to just want to get piss drunk, but no. I like wine because I like having something complex and nice to taste with someone else, probably nice and complex as well.
I've learned lots of new phrases, most of them vulgar. "Mackin on" is a phrase that literally means fucking, but it's mostly used as a joke. If someone wishes to pursue a closer relationship with someone else, it could be joked that they're mackin on them. Charming in how blunt it is.
There's a girl with pink hair in my building. Not all pink, though I think I've seen another girl once with short hair, all of it an electric blue. She just has a few long locks of pink left. Not hot pink, which is what it used to be. It's more the shade of pale cotton candy, soft and light, all of it on blond hair. I don't know why it's so eye-catching. I've seen a lot of eye-catching hair, all attractive for some strange reason. There's a rather whimsical girl who goes here with a full head of dreadlocks. Something refreshing about seeing her. There's another one with short hair, except she has this rat's tail that grows asymmetrically from her neck. Anyway, pink haired girl's nice. All of her pajamas apparently have hearts on them which is both silly and charming. She has a self-consciously bad taste in books and doesn't listen to enough music. I guess one could say that I'm mackin on her. I guess. Fall break's this coming weekend, and I'm staying on campus. It would be nice to get to know her more then. We have a plan to take a trip into town to the Salvation Army store this weekend, and we'll explore the rest of Brunswick, too. I may even have someone to share the yellowtail with *a-wink wink*. I guess I still run into some of the old problems, though. The subtle shyness. The feeling of not feeling appropriate to the situation. Whether I'm actually wanted around or not. I'll try not to let them come up, though, especially this weekend.
There are lots of trees around on campus. My dorm faces a tiny forest. It's not the densest one in the world, but if you look at it from certain angles, it looks impenetrable. The trees become fence posts that guard some neighbor's yard. They start to hide something, even though you know it's only houses on the other side, but that's only what you know. You don't actually go through. They hide something for those that want to look below, through, underneath.
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I just read both of your recent posts. It would be impossible for me to express how wide my grin is right now :D Mario, it makes me glad to hear(read?) all of this. Really. You sound like you're having a wonderful time over there, and you've clearly retained your ability to write, which I love. I'm honestly happy for you.
ReplyDeleteMario, be a new you! You should know that very many people like the person who you are, but you just gotta express yourself. How else will they know what surprises you hide? If you feel like you're inappropriate in a situation, take control of that situation and make it fit you. There's always room for spontaneity, especially if it takes the form of humor. It's what keeps things going. People are missing out if they don't get to know you... Show them what they're looking for. Bad reference?
No, but seriously Mario, knowing all of this pleases me. You're at college, and now you have the chance to be free of many things. Don't forget to free yourself from... yourself. Laugh. Live. Love.